force killed/ reason: walking alone on sand (dont remember correctly)

After had disussion a bit on discord about i got force killed by admin with reason: walking alone on sand (dont remember correctly). is it reasonable? or it count for abused? but i still dont have the result. so i bring it on forum to make it clear and more understandable...

I were in tank squad (Detele_uall sqleader) ofc i ll try to do something could help tank. After got killed by enm tow at highway so i think about to take sniper kit and camp that tow... wasted a lot of time until i could get sniper kit and got stuck in the rock.

1. I saw full sq and i called friendly tank come to my position and gave direction where is fullsq...
2. i squadchat... can u kill me before u leave.. im stuck and misunderstood happened is Delete force killed me 1st time.
3. i squadchat omg...i asked tank kill me... i have 1 more death now... and i try to explain im playing die hard (less death possible) ( cant remember word by word but meaning same same).
4. No truck/jeep in main and i dont trust trans pilot so i decided to walk..
5. Delete asked me wat re u doing... and i dont understand what he asking for... bc im clearly walking back to where im dead and i think he should be known it.
6. Cant remember word by word but i remember he told me about afk last map. then i squadchat to explain like... i have busy life... ( i though i were in fun conversation)
7. Then Delete force killed me 2nd time with reason: walking alone on sand.... then joined cas squad...

Overall i still dont understand that 2nd force killed wat is reason for? wat messages he want to send me? right now im feeling he intentionally killed me because i said im playing die hard... (i mean less death) to make me get 1 more death... 

Notice: why i used chat most of time bc they said they couldnot understand my english/mic.

Hope admin could show squad chat in this tracker: br.hogclangaming.com/tracker_2022_02_26_...ds_gpm_cq_128.PRdemo
Demo: br.hogclangaming.com/auto_2022_02_26_14_01_03.bf2demo